Life 3

What is all around? What this life is? 

Is life selfish?

Some time I say yes. As this is proved today.

All my friends says that some person keep good understanding till they find something in you useful then they put you out like a bee from tea.

I got a call today, strange no. but after hearing voice I feel its a good day one of my best, cutest, closest, friend still remember me. I was feeling that I’ll never gonna chance to contact again. As all contacts are not reachable or not responding. After start talking I was thinking that now we will talk about what’s going on, so long time and all bla bla .. but sudden with in few seconds my feeling was dead because the call was not for me it’s for a purpose. My ears were full of echo of my friends sound. Do not trust anyone. That time I was feeling same like a bee in a tea.

While the experience of separating from someone I really loved, offered me one more opportunity to contemplate impermanence, the reality of suffering, the inevitability of karma and finally the preciousness of an auspicious human birth that should not be wasted at any cost. The fact is, we are the only ones who can change our circumstances through making a conscious effort to notice our own mind-set.

That time only these lines come to my mind don't know why..

You can run from me

You can hide form me

But I am right beside you

In this life. 

To get me though today and this life

Let me tell you who you really are 

Let me show you what I'm made of

Good intentions are not enough ...

One side where I am working as a bull in absence of my friend at friends place, just trying to fulfil his absence and keep management and another side a another friend want me to dance on call and instruction. Two friends but big difference in intentions, feeling and emotions. Just a day back I have same set of feeling but now i got the difference. This is not first time i deceived, many time before this but now this time to get a lesson and move on.  

I lose myself in the illusion of separation and suffer only because I believe the ego is real. This is contrary to the ego’s empty nature as a simple matrix for the mind to help me navigate through the world. In the same way that repeated thoughts, such as jealousy or hate (or love and emotions) begin to create a force field that attracts more of the same, my repeated belief in the ego causes it to take on a life force of  own and begin to think of ‘myself’ as something with actual substance that is separate from all that is.

Life continues ......