Chalta hu

Kabhi armano ka
to kabhi jajbato ka
janaaza liye hi chalta hu ,
kya kahu mere dost ab to
jeene k bahane liye chalta hu..

-Dev :)

मंजर

याद नहीं क्या क्या देखा था, 

अब तो सारे मंजर भूल गए,

जहाँ  की गलियों से जब लौटे, 

अपना भी घर भूल गए।।

खुद भी जब अपनी कसमें, 

अपने वादें अब याद नही ,

हम तो  अपने ख्वाब, 

कहीं आँखों में रख भूल गए।।

 जिन्होंने मेरा क़त्ल किया है,

 कोई उन्हें भी बताये " देवा ",

मेरी लाश के फूलों में वो,

 अपना खन्जर भूल गए ।।

Life 4 (Social Networking)

The word "Social Networking" seems like most popular word now a days. There are many ideology running with this word. Such as "It is essential part of life for a particular group to making reach through out the world, making and breaking relationships, developing and destroying social community and activeness ". Some where old getting in touch in different countries and other side close friends making gaps with managing virtual/artificial social friends. In both expects where are the problems?

Lets go a period (5 year) back, where mobile exist, internet exist but people are not ebriety(habitual) of these things. They are having time for their family, relatives, friends along with these technologies. Because that people used these things for fulfilling their daily necessity. Often they use internet to make clear their doubts and use mobile to communicate in extreme condition or can say to be remain just in touch. This is the time where people having their social life and they go out to reach their relative's/ neighbour's house to communicate, visit to get updates from them and spend time with friends to chitchat. The hunger of need and technology that was not bad but we make this bad, not bad can say worst.

To explain this issue I have a story of "Adam & Bryan" as follows-
Adam was sitting in his room, lost in thought, deeply worried and was showing all signs of a person facing the biggest crisis of his life. He had lost all interest in his studies, could hardly concentrate, felt that his favorite foods were tasteless and had no motivation to do anything but slouch. He had lost 10 pounds, stopped bathing, hardly slept for 2 hours at a stretch and looked 10 years older than he really was. He was sure that no one faced such a deep crisis in their teens and felt that the entire world was out to get him, yeah the entire world except for his friend Bryan. The thought of Bryan bought a smile to his face and he suddenly remembered that Bryan was coming over to his house in an hour. Bryan was the most popular kid in school and in addition to being the best in anything he took up, he excelled in charming everyone. All girls were tongue tied in front of him and while he did not have a girlfriend, each girl thought that she had a special relationship with him. Adam was encouraged and felt that Bryan would be the only person who would understand him and help him tide through this crisis.

He heard the doorbell and immediately heard his entire family excited and animated. His little sister’s squeaky voice was especially loud. Surely that must be Bryan. Like other girls in his school, his sister had a crush on Bryan too. After exchanging pleasantries and making everyone feel that he had come just to visit them, Bryan bounded up the stairs and knocked Adam’s door. “Gosh,” Bryan said. “You look fantastic; do you have a date tonight?” Bryan was the only one who could be light hearted in Adam’s current state. Adam’s entire family was very worried and real scared to talk to him. They secretly hoped that Bryan could knock some good sense into him. Bryan on the other hand, acted as if nothing had happened and immediately put Adam at ease. Bryan probed – “why this new look?”

With a sigh that conveyed that the weight of the world was on his shoulders, Adam confessed. He said he was troubled deeply by his current situation, could neither eat nor sleep, his whole life seemed to be a blur and he found no joy in anything. He struggled to find words explain his crisis to Bryan and finally blurted out – “I have need to kill my relatives” and with a long pause added “... on Facebook”. Ever since Adam started dating Jessica he felt his life has been a mess. While he felt that she was fantastic and the best thing that had happened to him, her online personality has been real troublesome. First, she nagged him to change his Facebook relationship status. Within seconds of doing so, his extended family pounced on him and started questioning him. An uncle who an ex-Marine put him through a lie detector test and an aunt in Florida was particularly peeved as she felt that he should be hooking up with her friend’s daughter instead of Jess.  Moreover, whenever he and Jess go on a date she posts a status update and a photo of them looking silly together. Three weeks back, he had to sit in one of the photo booths in the local mall looking clowny in four different ways and within seconds his entire extended family saw it on Facebook. “YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO JOIN US FOR DINNER” his mom commented on the post, all in caps. And when Jess replied with a “lol”, not only his mom was pissed with him for missing dinner but was convinced that Jess was the wrong girl for laughing out loud. He kept recounting similar horror stories that had become the bane of his existence and finally said “I see no solution other than cutting off all my relatives … from Facebook.”  The very thought made him shudder and he could not bear the idea of being cut off from his uncles, parents, teachers and cousins who have meant everything to him. Surely this must be the biggest crisis that anyone has faced. With that, Adam started weeping, inconsolably. It was as if a dam broke and all the bottled up problems came to the surface.

Bryan with a loving smile on his face put his hand on Adam’s shoulder and said “hey dude just chill”. Your online profile is not the real you, Brian exclaimed. Similarly he continued — your uncles, aunts and teachers are much more than this imagined entity. While they have photos, videos, posts, comments, birthdays, events and likes the “real” them is something much deeper, something that cannot be expressed in words. The key to real happiness Bryan said, with a twinkle in his eye, is to first find the real you and then when you do that you can connect with the reality in anyone. Bryan also said that the real Adam was always there, before the online identity existed and will continue to be there when this imagined identity ceases to be. The moment you see the truth of this, lightness will descend and you will easily deal with these imagined entities. You will be objective about blocking or ‘unfriending’ your extended family and will feel immense love for all because for the first time you will meet and connect with the reality. Being in love and making others see this reality will give you so much joy that that will become the sole purpose and sole driver of your life.

“Is it really that simple and obvious” Adam asked. To which Bryan burst out laughing and said, “Yes my dearest friend it really is.” It is hard to do things to sustain our artificial identity, but it is super easy is to just be our real selves. Adam felt the weight of the world lifted from his shoulders was overwhelmed with gratitude and love for Bryan and said – “Hey can I call you master, it will mean a lot to me.” Bryan laughed again and said “Sure but realize that there is no difference between the real you and the real me, but that is for a different day”. They both laughed and bounded down the stairs drawn by the smell of fresh pancakes from the kitchen.
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After going through this story this story seems to be every 3rd or 4th of youth is suffering from similar kind of this problem. Using in this artificial world we start living in this world, we start wishing birthdays on it, sending wedding invitations on it, chatting morning to late night to our friends in virtual environment, requesting for apps emotionally hoping for approval if not then it ll built a knot inside our heart and slowly slowly it gives serious spaces between two. It become just formality to wish birthdays, joining invitations, likes n more.

I don't want to come on any conclusion but can suggest to believe in real world and be more active in this.

असमंजस

दिन ये यारों हर साल चला आता है,
भूली बिसरी यादों को जगा जाता है,
मिलकर कुछ से  चहक उठते है चेहरे ,
सुन कर आवाज कुछ की आँखों में भर आते नगमे ,
हर साल ये दिन कुछ यादें जोड़ भी जाता है,
बीत रही है ज़िन्दगी याद करा जाता है,
मायूस हो या खुश हो अजीब कसमकस है,
क्या यही जीवन है अभी भी असमंजस है ।।

Life 3

What is all around? What this life is? 

Is life selfish?

Some time I say yes. As this is proved today.

All my friends says that some person keep good understanding till they find something in you useful then they put you out like a bee from tea.

I got a call today, strange no. but after hearing voice I feel its a good day one of my best, cutest, closest, friend still remember me. I was feeling that I’ll never gonna chance to contact again. As all contacts are not reachable or not responding. After start talking I was thinking that now we will talk about what’s going on, so long time and all bla bla .. but sudden with in few seconds my feeling was dead because the call was not for me it’s for a purpose. My ears were full of echo of my friends sound. Do not trust anyone. That time I was feeling same like a bee in a tea.

While the experience of separating from someone I really loved, offered me one more opportunity to contemplate impermanence, the reality of suffering, the inevitability of karma and finally the preciousness of an auspicious human birth that should not be wasted at any cost. The fact is, we are the only ones who can change our circumstances through making a conscious effort to notice our own mind-set.

That time only these lines come to my mind don't know why..

You can run from me

You can hide form me

But I am right beside you

In this life. 

To get me though today and this life

Let me tell you who you really are 

Let me show you what I'm made of

Good intentions are not enough ...

One side where I am working as a bull in absence of my friend at friends place, just trying to fulfil his absence and keep management and another side a another friend want me to dance on call and instruction. Two friends but big difference in intentions, feeling and emotions. Just a day back I have same set of feeling but now i got the difference. This is not first time i deceived, many time before this but now this time to get a lesson and move on.  

I lose myself in the illusion of separation and suffer only because I believe the ego is real. This is contrary to the ego’s empty nature as a simple matrix for the mind to help me navigate through the world. In the same way that repeated thoughts, such as jealousy or hate (or love and emotions) begin to create a force field that attracts more of the same, my repeated belief in the ego causes it to take on a life force of  own and begin to think of ‘myself’ as something with actual substance that is separate from all that is.

Life continues ......

वो कोई और था

वो कोई और था जिसे तुमने देखा था,
जो हर बात में मुस्कुराता ,
जो वक़्त चहकता रहता था,
हर ख्वाब को सच करने का हौसला रखता था,

वो कोई और था जिसे तुमने देखा था,

हर राह  में मंजिल पा लेता ,
हर सवाल का जवाब दे देता ,
हर मुसीबत  का हल दिमाग में रखता था,

वो कोई और था जिसे तुमने देखा था,
जो एक उदाहरण था ,
जो एक नीसां था जीत का ,
हर जीत के बाद नयी जंग की राह ताकता था,

वो कोई और था जिसे तुमने देखा था,
आज वो खुद जूझ रहा है,
अपने वजूद को बचाने में,
अपनी मंजिल तलासने में,
वो शायद वो ही है जिसे तुमने  देखा था,

मगर आज वो वो नही रहा,
वो बहुत बदल गया है,
इक ईमारत हुआ करता था जो,
अब बस खंडहर रह गया है
एक खंडहर रह गया है।

आसां नहीं

दिल की बात को जुबां पे लाना इतना आसां नहीं,

अपनों को अपनी बात समझाना इतना आसां नहीं,

अपने ही ख़्वाबों का सौदा करना इतना आसां नहीं,

जहाँ के लिए खुद को भूल जाना इतना आसां नहीं,

जिंदगी के सफ़र में मंजिल पाना इतना आसां नहीं,

सफ़र में किसी का साथ पाना भी इतना आसां नहीं,

खुद पर ही हर इलज़ाम लगाना इतना आसां नहीं,

हर ज़ुल्म की खुद को सजा देना इतना आसां नहीं,

जैसा दिखता है जहाँ ये जहाँ भी इतना आसां नहीं,

खुद को इस जहाँ से ही बचा पाना इतना आसां नहीं ||